Wednesday, 24 September 2014

Love in the sky

I've been at work for 2 weeks now after my annual leave. I'd never felt how much a break was so much needed. The great thing about work is when I'm on leave, I can totally forget about my work because I know I can leave it to the capable hands of my colleagues. Whereas when I was a student, I always thought about my studies and exams. I had a bit of guilt while I was enjoying myself. However, having said that when I'm at work, I'm busy as hell, I usually have only 3 minutes to bite on my biscuits for lunch and drink some water to keep myself hydrated throughout the day. It's tough, I never knew working as a doctor would be this tough. I never used to understand when people said they looked up to doctors, at that time I never thought much about it. Then now I realised it's true, that responsibility is so huge, nothing in my life really matters, hunger, sleep, messages, they're like non-existent when I'm at work. It's like don't even think about them. We work towards improving or stabilising human lives, that's why I always have to put their needs and safety first above all else. I love my patients. I always try to see them as part of my family, understand things from their perspectives. I think if my family were to be hospitalised, I'd love them to receive the most optimal care doctors and nurses could offer, so I'm trying my best as well. At this stage with the limited experience that I have, all I can do is make sure they're on the right treatment as planned by the seniors, investigations have been requested, done and results chased, it can be physically and mentally exhausting but hey, everyone starts from the bottom too.

I had a great annual leave! It was very worthwhile to stop by Singapore to catch up with my boyfriend. It was one of the most amazing series of dates we've ever had.

I told him I wanted to go to the Ocean Restaurant by Cat Cora because it's actually at the SEA aquarium! We were watching the aquarium while eating. It was awesome! If I ever had the chance, I'd definitely go back again! The aquarium was so huge, it almost felt like dining underwater.
And because we know we can't meet during our 6th year anniversary, we sort of celebrated it there! Haha!
It was a surprise when the waiter approached us with this cake! It was very nice of them though!

Another highlight of my short trip was sky dining with Ian! Singapore flyer is the first ferries wheel to offer sky dining in the world. It is quite rare and when people saw us and a few other couples dined at the Singapore flyer, they started to snap pictures from outside because it's all transparent glass and we felt like animals at a zoo. Trust me to put it in the most unglamourous way. Haha.
We could almost see the whole night view of Singapore. It was definitely one of the most romantic dates! The views were breathtaking from high above.

It's always great to reunite with my boyfriend, no matter which part of the world we are at, it always feels like home away from home with him around. LDR is now part of our lives, we are not complaining because love can travel the distance if a couple makes it work. Who knows how many more years of LDR to go? People have asked me to go back 2 years later. For now, I have no plans to because I want to go on further, as far as I could. I'd rather suffer now so I can have a better future as a doctor and serving my country is definitely part of my future plan, no matter how far ahead it may seem x

Wednesday, 6 August 2014

My official first day as a doctor.

Hello!

I'm slowly getting used to people calling me doctor and receiving letters and emails, addressing me as Dr. Teo. It was a little strange at first, I've worked hard for so many years for this title and the job but hearing others call me that was a little weird, at first. Haha.

I was really nervous this morning, normal working hour starts a 9 am, I went in at 7 am to sort out my patient list and be more prepared for my consultant ward round. I'm glad I did. The nurses were SO GOOD TO ME. I was like, what have I done to deserve such love and help? I wouldn't have made it through today without them!

Since I've moved to Nottingham, I haven't been able to keep in touch with mom! =( She thought I've neglected her but it's because I'm still settling in, I'm only able to move to my new home this Sunday and will only have internet connection 2 weeks later, then I can skype with her every morning as usual! =D

Move on to another subject... Recently, a friend was heartbroken from a breakup and he came confiding in me. I'm not sure why but friends like to confide in me when they have relationship problems, I knew I should be a psychologist but it's a bit too late now. LOL. Anyway, I thought of blogging about it because I came across this article Why first marriages fail? and reading it reminds me of all sorts of relationships I've observed. When it comes to relationships, I know everyone has their own way of loving one another so I try not to be judgmental.

I saw too many broken relationships even before I started dating Ian, he's my first love. At the beginning when I just got into the relationship with him, I read quite a few books about relationships because I'd never been in one and I just wanted to know more about human love relationships. I'm really glad I did, being a book lover, I absolutely love reading and I then realised actually you can learn about relationships from books like how you learn any other theories, you can then apply things mentioned to your relationships as skills, easy. And throughout the years with Ian, it's been almost 6 years now, God bless us, that's what I've been doing. Of course there were times when I forgot and let it slip but I then picked it up again, that's the ups and downs of a relationship. If you read the article, you'll understand. There are bound to be arguments because we're not perfect people, we have space to grow as individuals in a relationship. From the article, "Researcher Carol Rusbult coined a term, the Michelangelo phenomenon, to refer to the idea that in healthy relationships, partners mold and shape each other into ideal shelves." This is true.

The article also touches on immature couples, quoted "(In public) they use belittling language, talk in whiny or condescending tones. Observing such relationships is painful and often embarrassing." This is so true, whenever I'm around couples like such, I wish the ground would swallow me whole, like seriously.

Another part which I totally agree with is "Those who feel secure and at peace with themselves do not need a relationship to feel complete. Instead, they seek partnerships to enhance  their already satisfying lives." I knew this since day one when we got together. I told my boyfriend my life has been really good, he is an extra blessing. And everyday, I'm counting my blessings x

Thursday, 12 June 2014

Cafe hopping in Taiwan!

Currently at this nice cafe called The Puff Cafe with Yogi! I've finished my elective report and now just chilling, watching the world go in this place I might not be coming back again.
Whenever I said I'd love to go back to a place I love, Ian would tell me to save money to explore new places instead, I think about it and do feel that's a better idea because there are so many more beautiful places for us to explore in this world. If I enjoy and make my time worthwhile while I'm at the place I love, once is enough, life's too short to come back to it again. I remember going to Trevi Fountain twice while I was in Rome because it was too beautiful and there was a saying that of you threw a coin into the fountain, you'd go back again and we did. Haha.
I think I'm now in love with Taiwanese caf├ęs. They always have a relaxing ambience with nice music playing. They just played Kiss Me by Six Pence None The Richer, Ian and my song. Haha. We used to have it as our ringtone back in uni until iPhone existed and everyone has been using the same tone then. Grrr.
Such a relaxing place. Will enjoy this before I start working. Even then, I bet I'll find ways to relax. Haha.
My Paris tea and Yogi's Tokyo tea. She said they reflect us. Haha! I love Paris, one of the most beautiful and memorable places I've ever been to ❤️

Saturday, 31 May 2014

In Taipei!

Hellooooooooooooooooooooooo!!

I'm in Taipei, currently waiting for Yogi to wake up from her afternoon nap. As you can tell, we've been eating, sleeping and shopping when we aren't at the hospital. Even then, hospital food is still great! LOL.

We wanted to go out today but I had a migraine so I slept through the morning and early part of my afternoon. Great.

Left with 1 more week of electives, Yogi and I will be moving out of Taipei next week and will be residing in another part of Taiwan, which we aren't sure of yet. Probably, Tainan. I'm quite nervous about my electives though, regarding my sign off from JPMC, hope my consultant replies me soon! *Prays* My consultant in Taiwan is really nice! Will update more next time.

I just realized I blog about once in 2 months now. I think it is a sign of ageing. LOL!

Till then, bye! xx

Tuesday, 25 March 2014

Oh hi!

It's been gazillion years since I updated my blog. I've been everywhere! Not literally but I guess kinda. Went back to Brunei for my SSC project for a month. Actually it was an excuse to go back for Chinese new year! Haha! I'll talk more about it next time. I actually only enjoyed the first 3 days while I was home because I've been really anxious about finals! People who are close to me will know I get freaked out before every exam, it's crazy but my boyfriend usually suffers the consequences. Haha! So I was complaining to him about being bored studying all the time and he online delivered me some macarons! Actually, it'd been a while since I had some! A while means 2 months *rolls eyes* Sometimes, I get really sick of studying 1 subject, e.g. cardiovascular system, literally sick that I feel nauseous but I used to force myself to study anyway 'cos I got a timetable written up and it's like 3 consecutive days of studying cardiology and yeah, it can make me nauseous, it's weird. I'm not sure if anyone else experiences that. But of course, I didn't really vomit, just felt nauseous. Lol. So I just go with the flow this time, with whatever I feel like studying.

Anyway, mom and Ian have been accompanying me on Skype a lot, to study. It's crazy 'cos I like company when I study, a company who doesn't talk, that is. LOL. It's quite difficult with mom and my niece 'cos I tend to want to talk and play with my niece on Skype, show her all sorts of things I have in my room, like Angry Birds and stuff. Haha! So I skype with Ian more nowadays and sometimes he will accompany into late nights of Brunei time. I miss him being around cooking for me! Luckily, mom cooked me lots of food! I actually haven't been cooking at all since I came back from Brunei for more than 3 weeks now? LOL. I either eat the food mom cooked for me or takeaway. Not bother to cook at all. This is my life without a boyfriend in the UK. LOL. But I'm glad that he still accompanies on Skype! Feeling blessed and lucky to have him and mom <3

Anyway, I've gotta go! Wish me lots and lots of luck! XX