So 2014 started me off with a bad runny nose, sore throat and cough. I'm almost fully recovered now. I still had to go to my GP placement every day this week because I missed a few days during my first week. I used to consider GP as one of the potential careers I'd do in the future but now it bores me to the point that I almost hate it. Back in third year, I had a similar GP placement and I enjoyed it a lot but I've changed over a period of 2 years. During the first week, I thought it was just the traveling that made me dislike GP but the second week, I realized, it's almost everything about it, it's just so long-winded. I miss running around the ward in a hospital setting. I hate sitting down in a consultation room all day long. I used to like that but it's a wonder how I've changed now. I was just telling my friends about it and one of them was like, "You should work at Accident & Emergency." LOL. I guess I'll seriously prefer that. But my GP tutor is really really nice to me but shame, I just hate the small clinic setting and all day consultations. But the good thing is I have my own consultation room and I see 8 patients a day on my own, which is all good experience and that's the only thing I enjoy about being in this placement. I just can't wait for it to be over.
A lot has changed in me within these few years and I've slowly come to realize every single change. I'd say it's a good change for myself. My thinking has changed, the things I like and dislike have changed. I was just watching Michelle Phan's new year resolution video and her first resolution was what I'd already started doing last year when I went to Rome because I noticed how obsessed I was over my phone, I was addicted to instagram, just updating and browsing through beautiful pictures. Many times, I just lost interest in my surrounding and the people around me. My boyfriend has complained about it a few times and there was once he was actually mad and I had to put away my phone so I could have a good meal with him for a good 30 minutes without me updating or checking on instagram. Though at that time, I still didn't think much of it. And I thought back to my December holiday in Europe a year ago and how I was constantly taking pictures of places and things and just kept updating my instagram, I didn't actually get to enjoy what was around me. Like Michelle said, she took 10 mins just to take a good picture, 10 mins to find a good filter and 10 mins just to update and by then 30 mins have gone by and then we're about to leave the place. It's crazy. And when I came back from the holiday, I remember pictures I took but not as much as the memory of myself at those places.
So when I went to Rome with Ian last October, I just wanted to enjoy everything in Rome and Ian's company, knowing that he would be leaving for good soon. I perhaps only updated a picture or two on Instagram during my whole trip when we were back at the hotel and I just didn't do roaming to my phone, unlike when I was in Europe, I did the roaming for it, shouldn't have wasted my money though. And I really enjoyed Rome, I remember every memory of it because I was enjoying it without spending time on my phone. And I thought back to my trip to Paris, it was almost the same feeling, it just felt so relaxed and the mind just absorbed all the people and the surrounding and that's why I can still remember these 2 trips vividly. I reminisce them a lot more! Haha. And also because Ian was there, with him, it feels safe and like home no matter where we go =)
Anyway, I got sidetracked. So that's also one of the reasons I was thinking of deleting my old instagram, I was obsessed with it and I knew I had viewers. I heard from people who heard from people about the food I ate, what I did, what I bought. They were all good comments, I don't remember people saying nasty things about me on Instagram so I enjoyed it while it lasted. But there were times when I updated just for the sake of updating and whatever I did, in my mind, I was like, "It's so beautiful, I'm gonna take a picture and upload it." So yeah and now I've deleted it so I can enjoy my surrounding more. I do have a private one now, which I just upload whatever the crap I want, which isn't interesting so don't follow. LOL. I still take lots of pictures though, this will never change I think. Haha. But I upload them much later when I'm home, I only update my Facebook now anyway.
Okay, here are two pictures from Paris, it was how I started my 3 years here in the UK!
Anyway, happy new year! Hope the next few weeks will be great!