Wednesday, 6 August 2014

My official first day as a doctor.

Hello!

I'm slowly getting used to people calling me doctor and receiving letters and emails, addressing me as Dr. Teo. It was a little strange at first, I've worked hard for so many years for this title and the job but hearing others call me that was a little weird, at first. Haha.

I was really nervous this morning, normal working hour starts a 9 am, I went in at 7 am to sort out my patient list and be more prepared for my consultant ward round. I'm glad I did. The nurses were SO GOOD TO ME. I was like, what have I done to deserve such love and help? I wouldn't have made it through today without them!

Since I've moved to Nottingham, I haven't been able to keep in touch with mom! =( She thought I've neglected her but it's because I'm still settling in, I'm only able to move to my new home this Sunday and will only have internet connection 2 weeks later, then I can skype with her every morning as usual! =D

Move on to another subject... Recently, a friend was heartbroken from a breakup and he came confiding in me. I'm not sure why but friends like to confide in me when they have relationship problems, I knew I should be a psychologist but it's a bit too late now. LOL. Anyway, I thought of blogging about it because I came across this article Why first marriages fail? and reading it reminds me of all sorts of relationships I've observed. When it comes to relationships, I know everyone has their own way of loving one another so I try not to be judgmental.

I saw too many broken relationships even before I started dating Ian, he's my first love. At the beginning when I just got into the relationship with him, I read quite a few books about relationships because I'd never been in one and I just wanted to know more about human love relationships. I'm really glad I did, being a book lover, I absolutely love reading and I then realised actually you can learn about relationships from books like how you learn any other theories, you can then apply things mentioned to your relationships as skills, easy. And throughout the years with Ian, it's been almost 6 years now, God bless us, that's what I've been doing. Of course there were times when I forgot and let it slip but I then picked it up again, that's the ups and downs of a relationship. If you read the article, you'll understand. There are bound to be arguments because we're not perfect people, we have space to grow as individuals in a relationship. From the article, "Researcher Carol Rusbult coined a term, the Michelangelo phenomenon, to refer to the idea that in healthy relationships, partners mold and shape each other into ideal shelves." This is true.

The article also touches on immature couples, quoted "(In public) they use belittling language, talk in whiny or condescending tones. Observing such relationships is painful and often embarrassing." This is so true, whenever I'm around couples like such, I wish the ground would swallow me whole, like seriously.

Another part which I totally agree with is "Those who feel secure and at peace with themselves do not need a relationship to feel complete. Instead, they seek partnerships to enhance  their already satisfying lives." I knew this since day one when we got together. I told my boyfriend my life has been really good, he is an extra blessing. And everyday, I'm counting my blessings x

Thursday, 12 June 2014

Cafe hopping in Taiwan!

Currently at this nice cafe called The Puff Cafe with Yogi! I've finished my elective report and now just chilling, watching the world go in this place I might not be coming back again.
Whenever I said I'd love to go back to a place I love, Ian would tell me to save money to explore new places instead, I think about it and do feel that's a better idea because there are so many more beautiful places for us to explore in this world. If I enjoy and make my time worthwhile while I'm at the place I love, once is enough, life's too short to come back to it again. I remember going to Trevi Fountain twice while I was in Rome because it was too beautiful and there was a saying that of you threw a coin into the fountain, you'd go back again and we did. Haha.
I think I'm now in love with Taiwanese caf├ęs. They always have a relaxing ambience with nice music playing. They just played Kiss Me by Six Pence None The Richer, Ian and my song. Haha. We used to have it as our ringtone back in uni until iPhone existed and everyone has been using the same tone then. Grrr.
Such a relaxing place. Will enjoy this before I start working. Even then, I bet I'll find ways to relax. Haha.
My Paris tea and Yogi's Tokyo tea. She said they reflect us. Haha! I love Paris, one of the most beautiful and memorable places I've ever been to ❤️ 

Saturday, 31 May 2014

In Taipei!

Hellooooooooooooooooooooooo!!

I'm in Taipei, currently waiting for Yogi to wake up from her afternoon nap. As you can tell, we've been eating, sleeping and shopping when we aren't at the hospital. Even then, hospital food is still great! LOL.

We wanted to go out today but I had a migraine so I slept through the morning and early part of my afternoon. Great.

Left with 1 more week of electives, Yogi and I will be moving out of Taipei next week and will be residing in another part of Taiwan, which we aren't sure of yet. Probably, Tainan. I'm quite nervous about my electives though, regarding my sign off from JPMC, hope my consultant replies me soon! *Prays* My consultant in Taiwan is really nice! Will update more next time.

I just realized I blog about once in 2 months now. I think it is a sign of ageing. LOL!

Till then, bye! xx

Tuesday, 25 March 2014

Oh hi!

It's been gazillion years since I updated my blog. I've been everywhere! Not literally but I guess kinda. Went back to Brunei for my SSC project for a month. Actually it was an excuse to go back for Chinese new year! Haha! I'll talk more about it next time. I actually only enjoyed the first 3 days while I was home because I've been really anxious about finals! People who are close to me will know I get freaked out before every exam, it's crazy but my boyfriend usually suffers the consequences. Haha! So I was complaining to him about being bored studying all the time and he online delivered me some macarons! Actually, it'd been a while since I had some! A while means 2 months *rolls eyes* Sometimes, I get really sick of studying 1 subject, e.g. cardiovascular system, literally sick that I feel nauseous but I used to force myself to study anyway 'cos I got a timetable written up and it's like 3 consecutive days of studying cardiology and yeah, it can make me nauseous, it's weird. I'm not sure if anyone else experiences that. But of course, I didn't really vomit, just felt nauseous. Lol. So I just go with the flow this time, with whatever I feel like studying.

Anyway, mom and Ian have been accompanying me on Skype a lot, to study. It's crazy 'cos I like company when I study, a company who doesn't talk, that is. LOL. It's quite difficult with mom and my niece 'cos I tend to want to talk and play with my niece on Skype, show her all sorts of things I have in my room, like Angry Birds and stuff. Haha! So I skype with Ian more nowadays and sometimes he will accompany into late nights of Brunei time. I miss him being around cooking for me! Luckily, mom cooked me lots of food! I actually haven't been cooking at all since I came back from Brunei for more than 3 weeks now? LOL. I either eat the food mom cooked for me or takeaway. Not bother to cook at all. This is my life without a boyfriend in the UK. LOL. But I'm glad that he still accompanies on Skype! Feeling blessed and lucky to have him and mom <3

Anyway, I've gotta go! Wish me lots and lots of luck! XX

Sunday, 12 January 2014

2014

Happy new year!

So 2014 started me off with a bad runny nose, sore throat and cough. I'm almost fully recovered now. I still had to go to my GP placement every day this week because I missed a few days during my first week. I used to consider GP as one of the potential careers I'd do in the future but now it bores me to the point that I almost hate it. Back in third year, I had a similar GP placement and I enjoyed it a lot but I've changed over a period of 2 years. During the first week, I thought it was just the traveling that made me dislike GP but the second week, I realized, it's almost everything about it, it's just so long-winded. I miss running around the ward in a hospital setting. I hate sitting down in a consultation room all day long. I used to like that but it's a wonder how I've changed now. I was just telling my friends about it and one of them was like, "You should work at Accident & Emergency." LOL. I guess I'll seriously prefer that. But my GP tutor is really really nice to me but shame, I just hate the small clinic setting and all day consultations. But the good thing is I have my own consultation room and I see 8 patients a day on my own, which is all good experience and that's the only thing I enjoy about being in this placement. I just can't wait for it to be over.

A lot has changed in me within these few years and I've slowly come to realize every single change. I'd say it's a good change for myself. My thinking has changed, the things I like and dislike have changed. I was just watching Michelle Phan's new year resolution video and her first resolution was what I'd already started doing last year when I went to Rome because I noticed how obsessed I was over my phone, I was addicted to instagram, just updating and browsing through beautiful pictures. Many times, I just lost interest in my surrounding and the people around me. My boyfriend has complained about it a few times and there was once he was actually mad and I had to put away my phone so I could have a good meal with him for a good 30 minutes without me updating or checking on instagram. Though at that time, I still didn't think much of it. And I thought back to my December holiday in Europe a year ago and how I was constantly taking pictures of places and things and just kept updating my instagram, I didn't actually get to enjoy what was around me. Like Michelle said, she took 10 mins just to take a good picture, 10 mins to find a good filter and 10 mins just to update and by then 30 mins have gone by and then we're about to leave the place. It's crazy. And when I came back from the holiday, I remember pictures I took but not as much as the memory of myself at those places.

So when I went to Rome with Ian last October, I just wanted to enjoy everything in Rome and Ian's company, knowing that he would be leaving for good soon. I perhaps only updated a picture or two on Instagram during my whole trip when we were back at the hotel and I just didn't do roaming to my phone, unlike when I was in Europe, I did the roaming for it, shouldn't have wasted my money though. And I really enjoyed Rome, I remember every memory of it because I was enjoying it without spending time on my phone. And I thought back to my trip to Paris, it was almost the same feeling, it just felt so relaxed and the mind just absorbed all the people and the surrounding and that's why I can still remember these 2 trips vividly. I reminisce them a lot more! Haha. And also because Ian was there, with him, it feels safe and like home no matter where we go =)

Anyway, I got sidetracked. So that's also one of the reasons I was thinking of deleting my old instagram, I was obsessed with it and I knew I had viewers. I heard from people who heard from people about the food I ate, what I did, what I bought. They were all good comments, I don't remember people saying nasty things about me on Instagram so I enjoyed it while it lasted. But there were times when I updated just for the sake of updating and whatever I did, in my mind, I was like, "It's so beautiful, I'm gonna take a picture and upload it." So yeah and now I've deleted it so I can enjoy my surrounding more. I do have a private one now, which I just upload whatever the crap I want, which isn't interesting so don't follow. LOL. I still take lots of pictures though, this will never change I think. Haha. But I upload them much later when I'm home, I only update my Facebook now anyway.

Okay, here are two pictures from Paris, it was how I started my 3 years here in the UK!
I uploaded my pictures in Disneyland too many times so here's a picture at the Louvre instead! <3

Anyway, happy new year! Hope the next few weeks will be great!

XX